No wonder I feel like Neo from The Matrix, it’s because of this “growth” behind my eye

So, what actually happened?

I’ve actually wrote about it in my recent Facebook post: (See below screenshot)

So long story short, for the past 2 weeks, I’ve been having some mild headache that never seem to go away. And on 15th April 2023 when I woke up, the headache was so intense that I had to rest for the whole day. Then at night, me and my wife decided to go get it checked, and so we went to the nearest hospital near where we live which is Parkcity Medical Centre. It is also my favorite hospital to go to. 😊😊

If you’re wondering why Parkcity Medical Centre is my favorite hospital, it’s because of a few things:

1. The nurse are so kind and helping, and even remember me when I was hospitalized again this time. They said I’ve grown more handsome haha. 🤣😂😂 Well, that’s because the last time I visited was around November last year, and I was bald; no facial hair whatsoever because of the effect of chemotherapy.
2. The insurance paperwork is smooth like butter. Unlike Thompson Hospital, which is a total mess 🙄🙄 (more about this in another post)
   
3. The rooms here are clean and spacious. They even prepare a long sofa that enables my caretaker, like my wife, mom or my brother to sleep in easily. There’s even a workstation near my bed where I can work if I want to.
4. It is situated near to where I live. Convenience babehh.
5. The doctors here are very helpful and doesn’t rush things, unlike the doctor’s in government hospital, and in KPJ Damansara Hospital (where I used to be hospitalized previously)

 

How do I feel?

Now, this is where things get interesting. The headache aside, I actually feel like I’m in a trance like state where this world feels unreal, or feels like an illusion.

Why do I feel like this?

It’s because recently I’ve felt as if my soul is being pulled outside my body into an alternative universe.

I wasn’t able to feel totally present in the here and now like how I’m used to. But, in a way, because I feel like my soul is elsewhere outside of this world we call reality, I somehow gain a very interesting insight where I’m able to see this reality and this world from that alternate world/universe.

So the doctor did say that the tumor is probably causing this weird sensation that I’m feeling, because it’s pushes against my left brain which is responsible for speech and abstract thinking. And my speech do get affected sometimes where I would say some weird words. For example, I remember at one time I wanted to say wear, but I said swore instead.

But because I feel like my soul is elsewhere outside of this world, that’s when I had the realization that this world feels unreal, feels like an illusion, or rather, feels like The Matrix.

Seriously, I’m telling you the best way I can describe it. I really feel like I’m a soul that resides in a body that is living in this world/universe that we call reality. I wish I could fly or stop bullets 😂😂😂 but I’m still bound by the law of physics. And I don’t see any weird japanese green code flying around 😂😂

 

So how does this realization change/affect me?

In all seriousness, the first thing that I feel is that I feel invincible. 💪💪

I feel like I can do anything in this world. I don’t feel any fear at all, because for me, this world just feels like an illusion. So that means I can create and manifest anything I want in this world. 😊 I know it sounds crazy, but I’m describing and sharing my experience as real and as honest as I can.

I also feel like I’m connected to all human being, whether they are strangers, family or friends. I just feel that closeness to all human being.

I also feel close and connected to the trees, grass, stone – basically all living things. Yeap, just like Kiri in the movie Avatar.

Also another thing that I feel is that I feel I can heal anyone just by touching or hugging them.

I can feel the healing energy being channeled from the above (you can call it God, universe or the higher power) through my body and into the person that I want to heal. But I’m not sure what kind of illness I can heal.

In fact, I’ve actually channeled this healing energy through many people during a healing session with Jojo Stryus at her Ohana Jo studio recently.

And I felt the healing energy passing through my body and into all the other participants. Surprisingly, some people are already healthy in their mind, body and soul and doesn’t require my healing energy at all. So this applies to people like Jojo Stryus and my wife who is besides me during the healing session. 😊😊

But for some people, when I pass the healing energy through them, (with my eyes closed) I saw darkness that is very persistent in latching onto them, and so I had to bring in more light and more of that healing energy to pull that darkness away from them. I did that successfully but one of the darkness managed to latch onto my face, left side of my face to be exact. And guess what, the next morning, I felt that intense headache on the left side of my face, which drove me to have it checked at Parkcity Medical Centre.

Is this a coincidence? I think not. I feel the darkness that latches onto me is probably a spiritual indication from the higher power that’s trying to tell me that there’s something inside the left side of my face. And thanks to CT-Scan and MRI Scan, my assumption has being confirmed.

It could be a relapse from the lymphoma cancer that I had previously. But at this point, I can’t say for sure yet until after the doctor have done the biopsy, which means drilling my skull, extracting some of the tumorous cells and testing it in a lab. So yeah, that will take few days to process.

Let’s just hope for the best.

But of course, I will do some prayers and healing too, especially Silva healing to completely heal myself from this white mass. Amen to that🙏🙏🙏